Just do it.....Nevertheless.

For so long, as I've lived an almost miserable to a happy life, I've constantly had one dinstinctive unwanted feature within me......a fear of not wanting to do things and enjoy things around me.

Everytime I thought of doing something, or I passed something I liked, I would suddenly recoil and walk away as fast as possible in the fear of gaining something and then regretting it.I would always come up with a lame excuse for myself, and I would suddenly find myself telling me, "oh dont bother, there's enough time to do that", and then the moment would slip by and long forgotten onto the long lost chapters of my youth. Now the time has come to change it, and it starts now.

From now, everything about me will act opposite to what I used to do. If I pass by a shop seeing a delightful chocolate flavoured Ice cream, out jump my hands into the depths of my pockets for the money, doesnt matter if I wanted to save for something else. From now, if I walk by a block where some really hot chicks are practising dance, I'll remind myself to sit and admire the beauty and the bargain - the dance. From now, I will do the exact opposite of what I think. Maybe I'l enjoy my youth anyway.

Let's just chill for 5 minutes folks. It wont kill us. god forbid.